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honeynougatToday is my 4 year LJ anniversary. 4 years. It doesn't feel like that. Technically another month until my anniversary on this particular journal because I created it and then deleted it and created it again when I first started, so I chose the month before the listed creation date as my actual celebratory date *is a dork*
4 years since livejournal lurking stole my life, which makes it over 6 since I got into fandom (ahhh those deluded innocent Het days). Took me 6 months whilst reading my first fanfiction (Harry Potter and the Psychic Serpent, and related universe) to realise just how much of the stuff was actually out there. That first fic was my first and only Het fic before the discovery of slash, it developed my love of Draco as actual character, but when I ran into this:
When Harry and Draco first met in Madam Malkin's robe shop, neither ``of them could have anticipated how much loathing and mistrust would follow. But ``one day in their fifth year something happens which forces Harry and Draco to ``reconsider exactly what such abhorrence is founded on. Little by little, each ``of them is overwhelmed by Unthinkable Thoughts, and they begin the voyage that ``takes them from their safe harbours of deep suspicion well out into uncharted ``waters. And the more they discover, the more the realise that things can never ``be the same again! (Unthinkable Thoughts by Aiden Lynch)
I was still perplexed. After about a week of putting it off I thought I'd read and see if the summary was really talking about what I thought it was. I couldn't put it down (so to speak) and whan I got to the actual slash stuff I thought I was being so naughty, at this stage I had no idea the extent to which slash permeates every fandom in existence. And that was that. My 13 year old self corrupted forever. After that it was scanning Fiction Alley for more Harry/Draco fics, then fanfiction.net (yes I know, shut up). Then just googling the pairing constantly to find other archive sites. I thought R rated was the highest there was, the first time read NC-17 I was slightly scandilised, but wanted to read more. After probably a year or more of just trolling archives and random google links I realised that more than a few were leading to this livejournal place... I didn't immediately create a profile for myself, didn't really think I had to, I was just reading communites and jotting down the names of any authors I liked in a notebook, then I realised the benifits of signing up friending, joining communities, commenting, etc.
It was around this point that I created a fandom identity for myself. The large majority of anyone reading this won't know this my first LJ profile description listed me as 19 and already in Uni, I was around 15 by this stage with only the vaguest notions of studying the degree I had listed. I didn't want to be treated like an annoying little child, wanted to read the NC-17 stuff, but I was terrified everyday that people I knew and talked to every day online would find out how old I really was. I never put on airs or tried to sound older than I was, I could just 'talk' like I wanted to, but still thought they might think differently knowing my real age. I had never had a problem talking to adults and at that stage in my life a lot of the time I felt I could relate better to my older friends (both in RL and online) than people my own age, so I didn't find it weird talking to women in their 40's about their children, but they might have which is why my real age was never mentioned.
Sometime after I turned 17, I took down the fake stuff, and just left it out, I was old enough by then that most people wouldn't have had a problem with me reading anything they wrote, but it wasn't until I was 18 that I put up any actual facts. I am 20 now, and don't regret a bit of it.
I was in the Harry Potter fandom up mid last year, when my excitement for it fell away without me even realising it at first. It might have been the release of the last book, it might have been the fact that my first year of Uni was really taking it out of me, but regardless I read less and less HP fic. I flirted briefly with anime and Manga sporadically throughout 2007. Then...
December of last year. I am home on summer holidays from Uni, and my younger brother is pestering me about watching this show he really likes, he thinks I'll really like it. He tells me about it, I tell hime that I have seen bits and pieces of episodes on TV and it looks too scary for someting that I would enjoy watching. He tells me I'm being a girl, to man up, and sits with me to watch the pilot to make sure I do. I am hooked after that. It only takes me a few days to get through the first season, and then to realise, "Hey! Didn't a bunch of my HP flist start talking about this Supernatural show?".
And then... Supernatural ate my life. Without going into all of it, this fandom took me hard, makes me read things that I used to squirm at in HP even if I secretly like them and feel absolutely no shame in doing so. My flatmates all despair at my squealing love of the J's and Supernatural, and I despair at their apparent blindness and lack of taste in TV shows.
So thats where I am 4 years after joining LJ, so very deeply entrenched in what is possibly the wankiest, bitchiest fandom in existence, and loving every minute of it. I can't see myself going back to HP, but I am constantly thankful for finding it, without it I may have never discovered fandom at large.
It makes me wonder where I'll be 4 years from now, SPN will be over. Will people still be writing it? Will I still be shipping the J's regardless? Will they have announced their engagement by then? Will I even still be involved in fandom then?
So I just wanted to say thank you to LJ (with a few notable exceptions but that is a different story) and collective fandom, for making the last 4 years of my fandom life a very happy one.
So mid semesters are over for this semester and I can't help but feel a resounding 'meh'. Most of them went really well, with the exception of 1. My Advanced Physiology exam was worth 40% of my overall mark, and I knew every question in the paper, so what was the problem? There was no where near enough time to actually articulate what I knew.
The convener is the kind of marker who expects a paragraph answer for a 1 mark question, no one word answers, diagrams for everything that could possibly require them, fully labelled and drawn neatly with different coloured pens. All of this would be fine if we had of had more than 1 1/2 hours to do the damn thing. I am just so annoyed. I KNOW I could have done so well in that paper, but I'm not going to because I didn't have time to put it all down, and what I did have time to answer is going to sound so inarticulate because I didn't have time to go back and check anything.
*pouts* There is nothing I can do about it of course, its just that everytime think about just how much effort i put into studying for the damn thing and the way none of that is going to show though.... :(
Note: Because I haven't had a chance to properly squeee about this yet, cohabitation, are they serious!?!?! *loves*
4 years since livejournal lurking stole my life, which makes it over 6 since I got into fandom (ahhh those deluded innocent Het days). Took me 6 months whilst reading my first fanfiction (Harry Potter and the Psychic Serpent, and related universe) to realise just how much of the stuff was actually out there. That first fic was my first and only Het fic before the discovery of slash, it developed my love of Draco as actual character, but when I ran into this:
When Harry and Draco first met in Madam Malkin's robe shop, neither ``of them could have anticipated how much loathing and mistrust would follow. But ``one day in their fifth year something happens which forces Harry and Draco to ``reconsider exactly what such abhorrence is founded on. Little by little, each ``of them is overwhelmed by Unthinkable Thoughts, and they begin the voyage that ``takes them from their safe harbours of deep suspicion well out into uncharted ``waters. And the more they discover, the more the realise that things can never ``be the same again! (Unthinkable Thoughts by Aiden Lynch)
I was still perplexed. After about a week of putting it off I thought I'd read and see if the summary was really talking about what I thought it was. I couldn't put it down (so to speak) and whan I got to the actual slash stuff I thought I was being so naughty, at this stage I had no idea the extent to which slash permeates every fandom in existence. And that was that. My 13 year old self corrupted forever. After that it was scanning Fiction Alley for more Harry/Draco fics, then fanfiction.net (yes I know, shut up). Then just googling the pairing constantly to find other archive sites. I thought R rated was the highest there was, the first time read NC-17 I was slightly scandilised, but wanted to read more. After probably a year or more of just trolling archives and random google links I realised that more than a few were leading to this livejournal place... I didn't immediately create a profile for myself, didn't really think I had to, I was just reading communites and jotting down the names of any authors I liked in a notebook, then I realised the benifits of signing up friending, joining communities, commenting, etc.
It was around this point that I created a fandom identity for myself. The large majority of anyone reading this won't know this my first LJ profile description listed me as 19 and already in Uni, I was around 15 by this stage with only the vaguest notions of studying the degree I had listed. I didn't want to be treated like an annoying little child, wanted to read the NC-17 stuff, but I was terrified everyday that people I knew and talked to every day online would find out how old I really was. I never put on airs or tried to sound older than I was, I could just 'talk' like I wanted to, but still thought they might think differently knowing my real age. I had never had a problem talking to adults and at that stage in my life a lot of the time I felt I could relate better to my older friends (both in RL and online) than people my own age, so I didn't find it weird talking to women in their 40's about their children, but they might have which is why my real age was never mentioned.
Sometime after I turned 17, I took down the fake stuff, and just left it out, I was old enough by then that most people wouldn't have had a problem with me reading anything they wrote, but it wasn't until I was 18 that I put up any actual facts. I am 20 now, and don't regret a bit of it.
I was in the Harry Potter fandom up mid last year, when my excitement for it fell away without me even realising it at first. It might have been the release of the last book, it might have been the fact that my first year of Uni was really taking it out of me, but regardless I read less and less HP fic. I flirted briefly with anime and Manga sporadically throughout 2007. Then...
December of last year. I am home on summer holidays from Uni, and my younger brother is pestering me about watching this show he really likes, he thinks I'll really like it. He tells me about it, I tell hime that I have seen bits and pieces of episodes on TV and it looks too scary for someting that I would enjoy watching. He tells me I'm being a girl, to man up, and sits with me to watch the pilot to make sure I do. I am hooked after that. It only takes me a few days to get through the first season, and then to realise, "Hey! Didn't a bunch of my HP flist start talking about this Supernatural show?".
And then... Supernatural ate my life. Without going into all of it, this fandom took me hard, makes me read things that I used to squirm at in HP even if I secretly like them and feel absolutely no shame in doing so. My flatmates all despair at my squealing love of the J's and Supernatural, and I despair at their apparent blindness and lack of taste in TV shows.
So thats where I am 4 years after joining LJ, so very deeply entrenched in what is possibly the wankiest, bitchiest fandom in existence, and loving every minute of it. I can't see myself going back to HP, but I am constantly thankful for finding it, without it I may have never discovered fandom at large.
It makes me wonder where I'll be 4 years from now, SPN will be over. Will people still be writing it? Will I still be shipping the J's regardless? Will they have announced their engagement by then? Will I even still be involved in fandom then?
So I just wanted to say thank you to LJ (with a few notable exceptions but that is a different story) and collective fandom, for making the last 4 years of my fandom life a very happy one.
So mid semesters are over for this semester and I can't help but feel a resounding 'meh'. Most of them went really well, with the exception of 1. My Advanced Physiology exam was worth 40% of my overall mark, and I knew every question in the paper, so what was the problem? There was no where near enough time to actually articulate what I knew.
The convener is the kind of marker who expects a paragraph answer for a 1 mark question, no one word answers, diagrams for everything that could possibly require them, fully labelled and drawn neatly with different coloured pens. All of this would be fine if we had of had more than 1 1/2 hours to do the damn thing. I am just so annoyed. I KNOW I could have done so well in that paper, but I'm not going to because I didn't have time to put it all down, and what I did have time to answer is going to sound so inarticulate because I didn't have time to go back and check anything.
*pouts* There is nothing I can do about it of course, its just that everytime think about just how much effort i put into studying for the damn thing and the way none of that is going to show though.... :(
Note: Because I haven't had a chance to properly squeee about this yet, cohabitation, are they serious!?!?! *loves*
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Date: 2008-09-13 07:34 pm (UTC)*hugs you* I'm glad you're here.
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Date: 2008-09-19 04:17 am (UTC)They do make everything okay!
This fandom and these pairings can make you read things you never would've read otherwise
But it is so true!! I mean RPS and incest fics, I knew they existed of course, but they never held much interest for me, now.....
Also Happy Supernatural Day!!!